I've been there, you have to remember you have your good days and bad days, sometimes good months or bad months. Right now, it may be a bad time for you
but things will get better. Think about what's good in your life, your friends, mom, job, talents, etc. Even if its something small, there's always
something that makes you smile, just think of that something. You'll get through this.
I want to discuss a very serious topic.
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Katie Folk |
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Posts: 22 (10/18/2009 12:41 AM) |
I kind of know what your going I'm kind of going through it right now. I guess the past three mouths or so I've been feeling depressed there are
moments and times when I feel fine and then there are times when I don't feel fine. Lately I've been sleeping a lot more, I don't eat much any
more, I don't enjoy myself when I go out, a lot of the time I don't want to go out, and I'm just so unhappy and sad a lot. I cry all the time there
isn't a day that goes by that I don't cry. Its just everyone around me is happy and has someone and I guess that is what I want I want someone I want
someone to love me cause I guess lately I've been feel alone and unloved and that scares me cause I don't want to be alone. But how can someone love me
when I don't love me or care about me. Then there are times when I have a totally melt down and feel worthless and I'll feel like I just want to kill
myself. I know that I would never really kill myself but sometimes I feel like doing it. The thing that just keeps me going is my family cause I would never
want to put my family through that cause I know that it would hurt them really bad and I don't want to do that to them.
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Posts: 2244 (10/18/2009 1:40 AM) |
CrunkCrazy4NSync wrote:I have never dealt with this myself, but since your father died, your mom propably needs you around more than you know. If you followed through with your suicidal tendencies then she would be alone. Just think about it and stick around for those that love you! I don't know what other advice to offer, but please don't do anything you will regret! Nothing is ever THAT bad. 
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Posts: 166344 (10/18/2009 5:03 PM)
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Agent M, I found your insight and advice to be very helpful, thank you. And Amy and GC, same to you, thank you.
Katie, you are pretty much speaking my mind. That's almost exactly how I feel, and I'm sorry that you're feeling it so strongly, too. I hope you've read what everyone else has had to say in here, and hopefully it will help you, too. If you need to talk, feel free to message me sometime. I'm not here all the time, so if I don't answer right away, it's just because I haven't seen it yet. We will get through this, no worries. I just wanted to thank all of you for sharing last night, for offering advice, personal stories, insights, help, anything at all...thank you, I appreciate it. And I found some solace in all of your words. |
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Posts: 1277 (10/18/2009 6:10 PM) |
BUMP. I need to read this. I feel like me and you can relate big time.
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Posts: 166386 (10/18/2009 8:39 PM)
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Aw, Navigator. What's wrong? Definitely give it a read, it's good stuff.
 Caring stuff!
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Posts: 166693 (10/23/2009 5:20 PM)
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So I've been having a bad day. Then my mom and I had the fight of all fights, and I can't even stand life right now, or myself, or all these issues.
That's putting it all very, very mildly, and I can't figure out how else to word it. I've been sitting here for an hour very seriously considering
taking my life, and I still can't bring myself to reach out to someone close and admit that I'm suicidal and ask to lean on them. I wanted so badly to
take every pill I have in here, but I don't know, I stopped myself for now. I'm supposed to go into work tonight.
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Posts: 3030 (10/23/2009 5:32 PM) |
I wish you didn't feel that way.
I would be so heartbroken if you took your own life Crunkydoodles.  I can't say I haven't been there where
I sometimes felt as though ending my life would solve everything for me. But then I think of all the fun things I've done in my life and how I would miss
out on future fun stuff and all of the people that love me if I did it.
I don't know how old you are or your situation but can you go for a walk with an ipod anywhere? Kevin J would miss you Crunkykins! 
You are such a wonderful person that if you lived close by I would take you out for hot chocolate so you could blow off steam.
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Posts: 166694 (10/23/2009 5:34 PM)
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Thank you, sweetheart.
I just have to suck it up tonight, eat dinner, go to work. |
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Posts: 19211 (10/23/2009 5:34 PM) |
I'm just gonna be blunt/honest/harsh whatever you wanna call it. But I will tell you right now, suicide is the most SELFISH thing a person can do.
/firsthandexperience
Don't do it. And I totally don't mean that selfish thing in a religious type way where its all like you're going to hell blah blah blah. No. I just mean it's selfish in that it effects each and every person around you (whether you want to believe it or not). So please, don't do it. And have you tried calling someone? There are a ton of resources out there, and a ton of people willing to listen (me included). 1-800-273-TALK (8255) <--- thats a free 24 hour hotline. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. |
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Posts: 1307 (10/23/2009 5:35 PM) |
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I've been suicidal before because I was angry at myself. I told myself that things will get better and that I
can get through whatever it was I was going through. Please get some help. Life is still worth living. This, too shall pass.
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Posts: 3031 (10/23/2009 5:36 PM) |
Do little things that are quirky to you and make you giddy. It should help you get through the night. Look at all of the titles you have under your name. You
weren't voted Most Trustworthy & JJB Therapist because people hate you or think your an arrogant asshole. Its because we all love you, strangers on a
message board or not.
Do you have a Primary Care Physician? |
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Posts: 16093 (10/23/2009 5:40 PM) |
I am so, so sorry. I know how it is to lose a parent, my dad passed in January of 2008. I don't think most people can understand unless they've lost a parent... I know how hard it gets sometimes. I have bad days where I just don't give a fuck and want to be with my father, grandparents and other people that were close to me that passed. I just try to remind myself that anything bad that happens now is so insignificant to having someone die. I keep reminding myself that the glass is half-full, I am so blessed and things could be so much worse. I hope you feel better
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Posts: 41692 (10/23/2009 5:41 PM) Best Fan Fic Writer '08 |
It's worth going back to your doctor... sometimes an adjustment in meds can help. (Especially since a fun side effect of anti-depressants is they can make
a small percentage of people feel suicidal rather than fixing things)
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Posts: 166695 (10/23/2009 5:46 PM)
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Thank you, guys. I'm sorry I don't have more to say in response.
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Posts: 5573 (10/23/2009 5:51 PM) |
I was really suicidal when I was in high school. I actually tried (unsuccessfully obviously) 3 times. On the third time, they sent me to this hospital and it
was honestly so horrible, I think it shocked me back into reality.
If anything, I know I never told you before, but you're one of the people that I actually enjoy talking to on here.. or reading your posts. Coming here gets my mind of shitty days and you def play a role in that. I figure if you're affecting people on an internet board, you must be doing it in real life too.. maybe you just can't see it. |
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Posts: 841 (10/23/2009 5:52 PM) |
Awwww |
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SShanique |
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Posts: 5289 (10/23/2009 6:35 PM) |
Why do you feel suicidal?
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Posts: 31528 (10/23/2009 7:00 PM) |
I've been dealing with the issue off and on since I was 15. I've even thought about it today.
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Posts: 15671 (10/23/2009 7:18 PM) |
CrunkCrazy4NSync wrote:As I told you once before, you've always struck me as one of the kindest, nicest people on the JJB. I find it hard to believe that your friends would reject you or be scared away. I think they'd be eager to help and support you in any way they can. It breaks my heart that you're feeling this way. I wish you well. |
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