Yuku free message boards

See I did something really stupid and acted like a total jack ass and now my best friend is mad at me and she won't talk to me. See I let jealously over come me and I acted really crazy and like a jack ass. I told her I was sorry I sent her a message on Facebook right after she told me she was mad and she told me she read what I wrote and she told me to just leave her alone and I have been doing that I have left her alone for the past four days now. I mean we have been in fights befor and gotten through them but this time its feels really different like I really feel like she is never going to talk to me again and I feel like that because this time she has a girl friend and I feel like she is replacing me with her and that is just killing me cause we have been friends for four years now and to just have her throw four years of are friendship out the door hurts because we have been through so much and been there for each other all these years hurts. I haven't been myself since all of this has shappend I've been betting myself up and hating myself there are days and times when I'm ok and then there are days and times when I'm not ok and all I want to do is just cry my eyes out. Then I went and got my best friend a gift its an early birthday/ sorry gift and I just hope that me doing that does make thing worse I don't know yet cause she hasn't gotten the gift yet it hasn't come yet cause I got it online. I know that me getting her a gift isn't going to make her talk to me or be my friend. So I don't know should I send her a message on facebook or myspace, send her a text or call her if I do any of those I really don't know what to say or should I just wait it out and see if she talks to me. I just want to know if she's still mad at me and if she's still my friend. Well I guess she is still my friend cause if she didn't want to be me my friend she would have removed me as a friend on facebook and myspace and she didn't do that. So maybe there is still hope I don't know.